My years at Cedarville were a pivotal point in my spiritual journey. It was there that I would begin to question the rationality of the fundamentalist framework that had shaped me from my childhood. And it was there that my exploration of theology, psychology, philosophy and sociology would plant the seeds of honest doubt that would ultimately open the door to a place where I would experience the beautiful terror of chaos and the peaceful severity of God’s mercy.
Cedarville, for better or for worse, defines itself within a particular interpretive framework of the biblical narrative. It desires that its students define themselves that way, too. When they don’t, the resulting dissonance often pits students against the institution, or students against each other, or even worse, students against themselves. Reading through the stories shared on this website of our experiences, both gay and straight, it is clear that those who differ from CU in conviction and belief are destined to run against its walls of tradition.
Here’s the good news: there IS a way. It’s not an easy path, but hopefully it helps to know that others have struggled and survived. More than that, many of us have emerged transformed. We understand that being Christian and being gay are not mutually exclusive. That loving God and loving your partner (no matter her or his gender) are not antithetical. That one can live a life of faith and honesty and openness, no matter their sexual orientation. That being gay is no more a sin than being straight.
I add my voice to the chorus of those here with the hope that all our voices, together, will help others find theirs.